No Baby Yet

Sure thought baby would be here by now. Lots of goings on, just not tipped over into something active yet. I am spending my time not answering the phone, hope nobody's offended but that's just the way I am, listening to God's voice, listening to good inspiring music, enjoying every kick and wiggle and jump and squirm-knowing I have a healthy baby in there that just needs more time. Maybe because of our hard summer and lack of good nutrition and care during that really hard week or two when Maura was diagnosed. Maybe because something I could never see or feel has to line up just so. Maybe because this baby just needs extra time. Only the Lord knows. But we are both healthy so we are waiting. It's hard emotionally but I am trying hard to be peaceful and graceful about it. Trying to listen and learn the lessons God wants me to. I think one lesson for me in it is I am not a midwife right now, I am just a pregnant woman. And that's okay, that's why I have midwives, so they can be that for me. And also, to let God be in control and stop trying to make it happen, stop trying to will and beg and plead for it to happen, to let Him be in charge. He knows when the baby needs to come. Nothing is wrong, everything is right.





A good poem someone gave me a long time ago.





Waiting

Dear Baby, here beneath my heart,


I thought that you might come today;


the timing just seemed right.


But the stars are out


and the moon is high


and sheepishly I wonder why


I try to arrange the plans


of God.


For now I know


you will not come


until the One who holds eternity


rustles your soft cocoon and


whispers in tones that I will not hear,


"It's time, precious gift."


"Now it's time."






I will wait on the Lord.....And I will hope in Him. Here am I and the children whom the Lord has given me! Isaiah 8:17-18 (NKJV)










Cardinal Flower at Crowders Mtn State Park courtesy of Kaley

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