Work Day

Today is going better, thank the Lord. Both Maura and Josiah were up in the night, but only from 2:30-3:00a and then Mark and I were able to settle everyone. Maura is wanting to sleep in our room, though, she just seems a little insecure.

The boys all went to cut some wood. My dad has an acquaintance who just has some trees and downed wood she wants pulled out and taken care of. That's great for us, free wood. We pretty much just heat our house with our wood stove so it's good to get ahead of the game. It's so nice out winter just seems so far away. This is my favorite time of year, I really do hate the cold.

The girls, Josiah and I went to the store. That went well and when we came home, Maura ran ahead to my bedroom, unpacked her backpack and laid out her glucometer and insulin pen! I was low key about it and matter of fact. She even set up the glucometer but then balked at the stick. She did good though. I told her I was proud of her great attitude. Then she decided she wanted to 'rest' before her insulin. So I gave her a few minutes while Grace cut up our cantaloupe. I still had to wrestle her a little but we got it done. She always sits and sulks a little, but we just try to move on and call her to her meal. She got over it pretty quick. She is so perky today, yesterday the whole day was weird, even before the stomach pain. She just woke up so down and was depressed all day. But that's to be expected as she processes through things, I would be too. What am I saying, I am! I get mad, sad, thankful, weepy and peace wrapping around me and weaving in and out through my days.

I put music on my blog! I did my favorite songs. I am really clinging to them right now, just be able to sing to the Lord and being reminded how much He loves Maura and all of us is getting me through these hard days. I know this will all pass and her diabetes will just be a part of life. But accepting what it brings, the life changes, future health issues etc, is just taking some time to get through. I've thought a lot about when my niece Sarah was born. She has Down Syndrome. I was there when she was born and through the first week with my sister Melody and her husband Jon. Melody said good bye to a lot of dreams they had had for a little girl. Marriage, independent life, etc. Maura can have a normal life, so it doesn't compare but it's still poignant to both of us, if we'd lived a hundred years ago, due to Sarah's heart condition that was able to be repaired and Maura's diabetes-we both would have lost our little girls. Lots to be thankful for.

So, hopefully I'll get on with my original wishes for this blog soon. I had hoped to use it for pictures and just a way to share our daily life with all our loved ones who aren't local. I'll get there. I'm off to bake bread and try out some natural fruit muffin recipes.

blessings